If you've been with me for some time, then you'd know that I've been feeling so confused because of how much I feel I'm already on top--because I've drawn everything I want to have drawn.
I created a side-timeline just so I could still have a sense of purpose in my own art, but it didn't occupy as much time as I'd like it to be, because it was so "side", so I barely feel any urgency or hot-blooded enthusiasm to get the things out for it.
So when I have spare time I kind of feel...lost.
I like spare time. Because it's time not spent working, and even though I like my job, it isn't exactly a job where you do things you love doing. But spare time without anything to spend it on feels...empty. And frustrating.
No, I'm not opening any requests and I will never tire of telling people that I do not open requests.
I used to open them, but because of how a hot mess it was, I decided to stop. No more requests.
But I've decided to improve my craft using the spare time I'm going to get.
No, this doesn't mean that all this time, I never strove to improve. I do, every day.
I just restrain myself from trying new things because I was too busy planning for, and drawing actual pictures--that is, full-coloured pictures where I pull all my stops and refrain from taking risks. From doing that for so long, I've improved tremendously. And I've drawn all the actual pictures I want to have drawn.
So I think I'm going to try new things. I have 3 side programs for art, and I intend to learn them and get myself more used to them.
And to be frank, drawing the same character/s all the time can get sickening, and drawing your own characters all the time can get empty. If I need any other characters, I'll solicit people.
This isn't a solicitation, though, since if I solicit someone, it's very likely for the idea to come into form, and I'm not going to promise it now.